Today I have been thinking a lot about the
upcoming summer. It usually goes so quickly, which I think this year will be a
blessing. With DH deployed, it will get us closer to the window to his return.
I was with my sister and my three nieces this week and the girls were asking
about my husband. They are all under the age of six, so the questions are
things like “does he ride camels?” and “Is he fighting bad guys?” which in all
their innocence makes me smile. If only things were that simple.
Next week I’m going for my surgeries. It’s been
a little emotional this week I think just leading up to that. I’ve had my mom
drive me to surgeries before, but this one is different with DH half way around
the world. I’ll miss him by my bedside taking care of me. He does make the best
chicken soup! He had grown this moustache while he has been overseas. When we
skyped yesterday I was so glad to see his handsome face – no moustache! It’s
the little things that get you through! We hit the 6 month mark since he
officially deployed. It’s kind of skewed since he was in the country for
training for a bit. But it’s definitely been an adjustment.
My mind has been wandering to reintegration.
Not only him coming home to me and readjusting to that, but also the fact that
our home sold right after he left. So he isn’t even coming home to the place
that he left. I’m in a small apartment waiting for him so once we have a little
time to settle back into life, we can look for a new house to buy together. I
wonder not only what kind of emotional bundle will be coming back to me, but
what kind of emotional bundle he is coming home to! I’m sure I have changed a
lot in this period as well. I definitely feel like our relationship has been
through the pasta mill. It’s been the pasta dough that was watered and floured
and pounded before finally run through the pasta mill. Now we are a pile of
noodles waiting to be turned into something! Who knows what. Hopefully it’s a
delicious thing!
Yesterday I had somewhat of a small
breakthrough of sorts. I haven’t been able to get myself to go to the gym. DH
and I went in the mornings together before work, and it’s been very hard for me
to even face the idea of going since he has been deployed. It’s been the last
big mental block in my life. I know – come on girl – get over it! So I talked
my cousin into going with me. I knew if I could just get through the doors, I
would be good. So yesterday, it happened! Today my arms are so sore. But it
feels good. As I did certain weights and such I found myself watching for DH to
come around the corner. Our normal routine. I can’t wait for him to be back. I
really miss him everywhere in life!
So not much of an update here. But just a
little catching up things are good post. I will have more next week after the
surgery and I will let you know how that all goes!
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